Difficulties, temptations and despair… know my child that when the evil one cannot defeat us internally, then he makes these external attacks with various events, allowed by God, in order to frighten us.
Despair does not exist in the Church, no matter what you have done…
There is a God.
When you are in despair, He will send you something you don’t expect.
It is enough that you believe in Him and love Him.
+ Saint Porphyrios